Ending a process

I've not known how to partner the Research Book and the Blog. To be honest, I think it is one or the other - for myself at least, I cannot use both. Not for, what seems to be the same purpose, to accumulate information and opinion, both primary and secondary, resulting in a body of research which culminates in an idea. It seems elitist, in theory anyway, that for a 3 week period I will use "small" ideas to build a "large" idea. The imagination shouldnt be provoked in that sense. I genuinly do not like Anish Kapoors work, but at the start of this project I automatically decided on fantasy and the impossible. I think its frustrating at this stage to ask art students who have not the means nor ability to create something "ambitious in both scale and intentension" and claim that it is benefitial for artistic progression. I just think the whole notion is barren. Most people with a heathy imagination think big, from day dreams of a perfect life, appearence etc. but there is destruction in that. I'm not saying that everyone should, at the first possible chance cease to imagine and focus on the reality, because the imagination is reality in its infant state. It might be self destructive to have chosen the final idea that I have, it might even be hypocritical, but I will never make it. It exists entirely in fantasy, and is not only untangable, but uninspired. I never want to 'make' something that I have not created. Not from any pretentious angle, or personal opposition to those who do, but for myself, at this very moment, the significance of being allowed to 'think' something that I cannot wholly credit to the transferrence of my imagination to my craft through to my art is not a stimulating idea at all.